I have been in recovery with my husband for a little over a year now. It has been challenging, but we both are in a better place. Since almost the beginning, I have wanted to forgive his infidelities. Can you answer why then, I look at men differently and almost see myself wanting to cheat on my husband?? Am I still not entirely over his cheating, or did I make a quick decision in the beginning to stay without recovering completely from his infidelity? I have many thoughts of “ what if’s” and I feel very guilty and ashamed that I can’t talk to him about it. Why do you think I have these feelings and what should I do?